Someone posted recently, suggesting that someone post a survey, asking women to talk about their own experiences with abortion. So, this is both a request for other womens' stories, & my own contribution.
I am 37 years old. I have had three abortions.
(yes, that's right -- THREE!! Deal with it.)
The only one I regret -- at ALL -- is my first. I did not get pregnant due to carelessness -- I got pregnant due to a faulty condom. I was 27 at the time -- the father of the baby was only 19, & a virgin when he met me. I told him I was pregnant, & he started to cry -- his entire life was collapsing around him. I asked him what he wanted me to do. He said "It's your decision -- not mine. Those are my politics ... that's how I believe ... & that's how I'm going to live my life." (& for that, I will love him forever, as any sane woman would.) I would not ruin this young man's life -- I had an abortion. He came with me to the clinic, & held my hand. It was the best decision, I know ... but still, sometimes, when I think about him, & about what a brilliant, transcendently lovely child that would have been, I feel sad ... even though I am still absolutely sure that it was the best decision to make. Neither of us was capable, at the time, of parenting a child as it deserved, & as both of us came from abusive homes, we both KNEW (unlike some of the antiabortion fanatics who post here) that there are a LOT worse things than to have never been born.
I never again got pregnant by accident. Unfortunately, I did get pregnant again -- twice within one year, in fact -- as a result of rape. The person who raped me was my ex-boyfriend ... I had dated him briefly, discovered that he was psychotic, & promptly dumped him. He stalked me to three states (I moved a lot that year) & even though I had notified the police immediately after the first time he raped me, he managed to find me alone a total of four more times before finally getting arrested. The first rape resulted in a pregnancy, which I chose to terminate, as did the fourth ... (& yes, I did do everything in my power to defend myself, even to the point of trying to kill HIM, but he was simply a whole lot bigger & stronger than I am, & had no, apparant scruples about hurting people so they would tell him where I lived, &/or breaking into my home to lie in wait for me.) The fifth rape, incidently, occurred later on the same day I'd had my second abortion ... & therefore resulted in an internal hemorrhage, which very nearly cost me my life. (Fortunately, it also resulted in him finally getting caught, & sent to prison where he belongs.)
I have absolutely no regrets about my second two abortions ... quite the opposite. An abortion is a HORRIBLE experience to have to go through, but when it is the right thing to do, you just have to do it. & to anyone who is insane enough to say that the right thing to do would have been to go ahead & have my rapist's child, all I can say is: rot in hell, you demonic piece of shit, Satan, your master, is calling you.
One more thing, in regards to my last two abortions ... if, for some reason, (such as South-Dakota-Style legislation, or some other manifestation of pure evil), abortion had not been an option, I would have -- without hesitation -- taken my only other option & killed myself. No question; no doubt; no hesitation. I could not have faced myself in the mirror each morning had I done otherwise.
That's my story -- who's next?
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