I am deaf but i hope you can understand my english
i only copied and paste here the first 6 paragraphs from my website i hope you can know who i am thank you
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I am living alone peacefully as I always feel it is not right to have children because there are continuance of sufferings somewhere in a human body because human body is not perfect. Also If I count all pains that are including serious accidents like auto accidents or hands get cut by kitchen knifes, etc., all over the world. The number of extreme pains could be countless which are constantly 24 hours for years because of by chance with about six billions people. By counting all the pains, if I decide to have a child then that mean it is good as if I torture my child with extreme pain 24 hours for years. For example, I said that every inch of my body is in an extreme pain which feel like broken bones which last 24 hours for years without stop which is never heard of but it is true by visualizing the total of unstoppable serious pains over the world. Why should I add more people on earth? If I add them then the accidents and the sufferings of human body because of not perfect human body will be added as well? Someone may ask, must I avoid all pains? Well, a painful experience can be okay as long as you hurt yourself only by marathon or anything else but hurting other people is not a good idea. That is why I went to the Planned Parenthood to have my private parts tied too early because just in case I may change my mind and want a baby. Parents may say and look at our children and they want to be alive. I think understand that but when in the past before their children were born there is no proof that they want to be born because they are not here yet.
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Someone may ask, do you mean having a baby is worst than being a murder or thief or any crime. I would say yes because there is no pain without a child. When I want to bring a child then my conscience may tell me its wrong to do that because it would tell me that I should know better only hurt myself by marathon or anything else but not produce a pain in someone else. Having a child is good as if I am hurting other people. Someone may say but my conscience seems tell me I have right to produce a baby. Well, his or her good conscience can get more weaker if "he or she keep counting how many people are in the world " I mean being a copycat can be dangerous. I am telling the truth that a human body is very ill like aids or any disease that cause pain constantly because I have never heard anyone living without pain either in small or big. Someone may say I made it looks like I am depressed. Well, I am not talking about depression but a natural unavoidable pain. Even every newly born baby in a hospital can feel pain because a flesh is not perfect.
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I always wish that there are no laws about clothes, school, death sentence and even with insects or animals as pest control, drugs and liquors but I don't use them, etc. I may continue to eat any kind of foods but it is better to eat only fishes because I am sure that all fishes allow me eat them as they eat some smaller fishes too as sharing in the food chain. If I eat a cow then it may not be fair because a cow may not eat an animal but hay from the farmers. That is why cows may boycott against us and tell us that they are not participate in the food chains of killing each others like a boxing game. Sometime I still eat meat but I don't kill them myself but for the best interest someday I must learn to not to eat cows so farmers cannot kill cows for money.
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Some people may say it is OK to eat plants but not animals but in my opinion it may not okay to eat plants because they can be living beings If you have to eat plant, I suggest you to eat a "fly plant " have you heard that plant has a trap leaf to catch flies?
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You may notice that I keep saying about right and wrong but in my opinion there is no such as a sin because I think if everything we do wrong is basically from some deformed (pains or numbs) brains like mental illness. There are no such as any wrong doings without mental illness. The sin can't exist because a pain can't say I want more pain because it is natural for the pain to say I want no pain but pleasure only. If a person want to do a bad thing in his thinking but it is still natural for that bad to say no I don't want more bad but only good. All bad may always connect with pains or numbs or not enough of pleasure that don't want more of itself. Someone may say but some people may even have pleasure in torturing animals or people. Well, I think a pleasure of torturing in these people is still insufficient which it may still need more pleasure. For example, a small weak pleasure may still need more to be full and perfect pleasure, like there are degrees of pain which some pain can be weak or strong. An insufficient pleasure (weak pleasure but without numbs or pains) is still not perfect. If a person with 100 percents of pleasure, therefore there is no complaining within that person which he or she can say who can bother me further. I have not seen a person with full pleasure (no pains or numbs) but it could happen to anyone. Things can be looked like sinful but in reality they are just a mental illness (pains, numbs or small insufficient pleasure) That is why people who hurt themselves by hurting others can't be called the sinners but just mental illness people. Therefore all criminals over the world are innocents as mental illness people. I think I can understand that but I don't try to do it wrong and take an advantage of it as an innocent mental illness person myself.
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I am not a creationist or evolutionist because all colors are individuals. They can't be changed into another colors or disappeared. There is not even one color missing in the universe. What I can feel in my body is always the same one color because it can't get into all other colors to feel many different colors. For one color can only feel its own color. All different colors are separable feelings. For example there is a color of white and blue next to each other and at the edge of white which is next to blue still has no way to be blue because at the edge is still white. For white is white. Therefore I am always the same one color from everlasting to everlasting. How can I the one color evolved or created from God or apes or smaller animals or plants that already have their own one color? There may be some look like evolved or created things here from past to present but one color is the only answer to me.
P.S If you want to read more about one color and deep issues about life then please go to a free website which is w9ww.9free9webs.co9m/one9color There are many numbers of 9 within this link so please copy it and paste it then remove the 9 because a full link wont work here. The first twelve and last thirteen paragraphs over there are same as here but you can skip them.
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